day126
It's been a while now I lost my way .... I already finished the school and started full time job. So I lost my perpose. I don't know what should I do to make my life better than before.
day112
Today is Monday I mean I must be busy same as usual. I don't want to keep taugh life. But if I want to good result I have to make effort. There is a prove like "nothing ventured, nothing gained"! I couldn't agree more. So I should make effort because I wanna be happy. By the way I was really disappointed again. Today I changed my class because my previous teacher quiet. I felt my new classmates are really nice speaker already. So I managed to keep up with the class but it was soooooo hard.
day110
good days dont continue forever.today i went shopping with my friends. but at that time i could not talk with them a lot cause i didnt come up with suitable sentence as what i really want to sa. but i tried to say as usual. however, my friends seem give up to keep talikng with me.... i think this is just my worry, maybe its not true. but i was disappponted at that time.anyway i was suprased to hear my friend likes my favorite guy! at that time i got a message from him suddenly so i said "he is usually so kind for everyone. i think this is an feature of his coutry."after that she disclose her heart.resently she has a crush on him but she has a boyfriend she really likes. so she is on a fence.it was soooooo exciting for me. i wanna ask him why he is so popular for women and if he has a crush on someone or not.
day109
i realized that i could listen a little what native speakers said. i could not catch what restaurant and shop staff said before. but now i can a little bit. maybe thanks to classes and working.so it means there are no waste of time.finallly i realized it. ohh im confident. and my friend who can speak well said to me " you and i have almost same ability to speak English." i almost cried at that time. so im worry about my next situation because i think the oppotunity using English will decrease after i graduate. so i have to look for another comunity to talk a lot in english. i think my workplace is not sutable because there are some japanese who usually talk in English.im thinking about looking for some partners as a language exchange. but i know it has a lot of trauble.i hope my next roommate will talk a lot with me.and if they can i want them to introduce me to their friends. but my top priority is working here and saving money to go to NY. so if i use a lot of money its not good for me. so i manage to control my balance.
day108
Hi I finished today's my work. Today I experienced the first working without Japanese coworker. I know my English is still bad. So sometimes I could not ask promptly. But I managed to ask others what I want to ask. I have a little confidence because of it. You know answering phone is soooooo difficult for me. But today I managed to do it. I was soooooooo exthoustic. I don't know if it's reason but I got a lot of spots on my face. I don't want to talk with others because of them. Someone please help me to treat my face to get better. But today I finished my stressful things of this week. I noticed I'm a little bit lucky so I could get job as soon as I started to look for. And my home stay is still good and I could find next house where has good location, good rent fee and Canadian room mate. And my coworker is so kind for me. She said to me "you are new so you don't need to be worry if you have some mistake. " how sweet she is. Furthermore , I was surprised when I came back my room because there are new tissue box I thought I have to buy and a pakage of chips I like from my host mother. I'm so lucky even though I have a lot of spots. ...... I don't like my face. I hope everything of me will get better soon. Good night.
day107
today i went to my voluanteer work.i thought i would be able to get a lot of cance to talk with native speaker. but i realized that i have to try to talk voruanteerly if i want to do it. untill now ithought i trid everything as much as i can, but i still hesiteite to make mistake. umm changing prosess of thinking is difficult. so im think about buy a bike.
by the way i didnt finish my homework, so i have to do it from now. uuuuuuuu
