day97

today i finaly decied my next room. so i could achive one of my goals. from now i dont need to look for a now room! its good for me! im excited to live there. the house has two roommates, who are a canadian male owner and a korean international student who is female. and i will share the kitchen and bathroom and living room with them. so im worry about if i can use it whenever i want to do and the roommate are good person. but the owner said to me that the past residents usualy had stayed there until they leave here. so i thought the room must be confortable. and the another rason why i decide is the location where the house is. there is a big mall including uesful supermarket, drugstore, and clothing shops. the situation is so attractive and ideal for me.becouse i wanna enjoy shopping and cooking. and i almost forgot there is a pablic libraly. and price is also reasonable. but i think the story is too lucky thats why im worry about it. i hope the situation wil be good for me. i should be more optimistic. usually i think about every thing too mush. that makes me be tired. its not good for me. my hostmother said to me that things so i try to do it.

by the way, tomorrow is monday. the following week is coming, and i know next week is not only busy but also challenging. so im excited about everything. ill do my best.

today i listend the songs made by ELLEGARDEN the first time in a long time. so i recall the band was awesome. i like their songs. their songs make me excited or emotional. so i wanna sing them even the song written in English.

okey today i was happy. so i hope tomorrow also will be good for me.

good night.

day96

Hi.today is my day off. i realize that i havent taken whole day off until now. but yesterday i talked a lot with my sister and went to bed around 4am. so i was tierd when i woke up at 8am. thats why i decieded to stay my home today. i ate breakfast with my roommate. she talked about her friends. i thought she had a lot of about relationship with her friends. she usualy hung out with her friends who are from her country and speak inher mother laungage. but she wanna implove her skill and know its not good atitude. but she dont want to leave from her friends. i think she is worry about bullying.

oh i have to contact with my boyfriend. its such a hassle. i am too laze to do it.

bye

day95

now i can enjoy chatting with korean friend.

but they has a semmiler accent with Japanese.thats why i can understand easear than other countrys. so i am supposed to talk with other countrys people or canadian. but as today i talk with myfrisends its difficult to make canadian friends. now my purpose is getting used to my work and findding new room where i will live from Oct 14th.so after that i am supposed to join alot of activities to make a lot of firiends.

i have a thing what i know about myself becouse of this study abroad. i tend to like younger guy if he is cute or clever or handsome. recently i wanna talk with  a certain korean guy because he can speak english well and i think his voice is so cool. and today he did cute attitude toward me. in that time he asked me what i would do after todays school and i said my plan that i would hung out with my friends. after that he made sad expression. i felt he is soooooooo cute! i wanted to go somewhere i f i didint have any plan actually.haha

dayy94

im too tired to write todays dairy

i wanna get rest a lot and cry...

day93

to tell the true, recentlly i am irritated at my boy friend. Basecally,  keeping talk with him is sometimes troublesome for me.  when i look back on the past i can remember that i usually feel that keeping relationship is troublesome for me. but yesterday my boyfriend decided the time to talk with each other. so if i have a another appointoment and cannot make it we have no choice.so i think i can reduce time to talk with him naturaly.haha

my host mother said to me i dont have to have worry and be nurvous. but i know i tend to think too much so i usualy has a lot of worry about everthing.of course i understand i am supposed to be more optimistic. and I wanna be like my friend who is oprimistic and talktive. i know i make me sad by myself. oh my gosh who knows about my feeling at all? I really really wanna be happy and satisfied with my life. maybe my ideal life is soooooooooooooooo completely.  i know everything about me but its difficult to change my thinking and my attitude.

oh its not good to be worry too much. ok. i start to think about other things. anyway im ganna start my job tomorrow. i wanna get used to the job and earn money as soon as possible. and my next goal is getting good place to live. if the location and cleanliness is good as i think i will decide to live there. i hope ican find suitable place. 

good night!

day92

Today i took a job interview to work as a server at Japanse restaurant. After that the manager send me a maeeage that come there to try out, So it mean I can get job. but Imnot sure the job is good or not. so I wanna confirm my purpose of this Working Holiday. My purpose is to live there and to earn enough money to go to USA and to learn English with talking with native speaker. 

My work place is Japanese restaurant. But Im not sure if the wage is good or not, Howevert, I should appriciate to work there because its very difficult to find job maybe... and Im worry if i can ask changing shift. because i wanna go to the voluanteer activity every Wednesday but I forgot to tell it. so im anxious now. because odf it i get somachache....

I will ask them in the time of traning on this Thursday.

recently i try to talk a lot. 

i wanna speak more fluently and correctly. and i wanna get good place to live. i know i have to make compromise but if i can i dont wanna do.haha im selfish.

and i know i have a lot of homework and i alomost done but some of them probably i didnt, i fogot. 

oh im so anxious now. i usually worry about everything too much, its my weak point. i wanna keep happy like my classmate. I hope i can do what i want to do!

good night!

day91

HI! Today I went to some houses to just look as a next house.

I had had 3 appointment to do. First of all i went one of them. the owner of the room was plder women and there is another retired male. the room was kind of small and not blight. but the atomosphia and the kitchin was pretty good. But im think about it. the good points of the room was clean, the kind owner, close to downtown, huge backyard, and canadian roommate.on the other hand the bad points was that on of them is male, my private room is small and not blight. Uh, I wanna consult to my boy friend but i think he must be angry to me....

oh i think its better to ask that if i live there wether i can live there more longer.